Have you ever cried so hard,
that you couldn't breathe,
have you ever had someone stab you in the back,
and laugh as they watch you bleed?
Have you ever loved someone so much, but they never understood?
Have you ever been abused for being bad,
When you were trying so hard to be good?
Have you ever cried a billion tears,
asking God "why?",
Do you know how it feels to fall asleep at night,
wishing you would die?
Have you ever had a man take your innocence, and throw it out the door?
and you live each day in fear,
wondering if he'll come back for more...
Have you ever had girl threaten to take your life,
and you try not to show your fear,
but it hurts too bad to hide?
Have you ever been thrown against a wall, with a gun held to your head?
and those words whispered in your ear that say,
if you fight me you'll be dead...
Have you ever thought you could trust someone, but they just throw you around,
and you try so hard to hold back the tears, as you hit the ground?
Have you ever watched your sister lie in front of you,
and slowly fade away?
You're just too young to understand, she won't be there the next day?
Have you ever overdosed on drugs,
because you just couldn't take anymore?
Do you really know what it feels like,
to have your heart get burned?
Have you ever left your house,
unsure if you'll return?
Have you ever looked to the stars at night,
and prayed for the pain to end?
Begging please just take it away,
and the next day you feel it again?
Have you ever been so far away,
from the only one you ever loved?
But she tells you just hold on,
and you love her too much, you just can't give up?
Have you ever told yourself to hold on,
please don't fall apart?
Have you ever really listened,
to a young girl's broken heart?
Do you know how hard it is,
for me to face another day?
If you don't then tell me why,
you treat me this way?
Have you ever felt the pain i have,
do you know how i feel?
Have you ever thought about your past,
and just wished it wasn't real?
Have you ever watched your mom,
fall farther and farther away from your kiss?
and you wonder why it had to be her,
why is life like this?
Have you ever screamed for help,
wishing someone would hear?
But no one hears your cries,
no one sees your tears...
Have you ever been through,
all the things i've been through?
If you haven't then tell me why,
you treat me like you do...

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Didn't blog for so long already... Think I gonna write a short one cause it's kinda late cause just came back from owen's house...Didn't blog at all during the exam period.. Kinda quite worried about all the papers on how I will fare in them.. This is the first time getting so worried for exams ba... Finally, still I have to say that exams are all over.. relief now surrounds me but there are still more to worry about that I think I won't mention here bax... Cause exam period over for majority of the skools and means starting work onto me. After the exams the feeling I had in the past like the sad feeling was so annoying to me...*sigh*I don't think I can take this anymore longer, but think no one really understand me cause I don't really wanna let people know about what I'm thinking of and let them worry about what to do...If someone can really read my mind and help me solve the problem without letting me know that you know... Please, I thank you alot... Recently, went to gui's house for a movie marathon. In fact, for 2 days continuously as we couldn't stay over night there it was yesterday and today... Watched White chicks, One missed call, Resident evil, A lil part of dodge ball & The new police story. After ending the marathon went to Owen's house to play PS2 with gui. I insisted on going home as I miss home... But gui cheated on his parents by sleeping... LoLx... The walk home is so tiring and eerie cause I was being stalked... Haha... Think I ending here for today... *yawnz* time to sleep liao... Good nitez... Sweet dreamz...

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The day started off badly as Owen had problems... He was very emotional at that time, so jia gui & me tried to console him by giving him advises... Good that he listened to our advice & I explained to Mdm Goh about the situation and she talked to Owen about it & soon after Owen started to smile at recess time...;) Les, Owen & me planned to go study after school Rose wanted to go too and we went home first...On the way home,there is 2 S.O.B.s that are so idiotic... The first one is a Malay guy that know how to scold don't dare to come down to fight... The second man is a depressed man that thinks he can kill me with a stick, if it wasn't that les,Owen,jaz & rose who stopped me I would have murdered the person*winks*...LoLx...Learnt that les couldn't go as his mama stopped him.After knowing that les couldn't go already...Siansation surrounded me...Rose went there the earliest followed by Owen...Then I went there about 2 hours late. Went to play pool with Owen after studying awhile. Booked the private room and then everybody came in. People like rose,kerry,kim,hui pin and auntie serene? We chat a lil and auntie serene was so out-going sia... Accompanied them to sembawang and then back to Safra again... Actually wanted to play bowling but play billard instead...Today,was the first day I played billard and it's cool... When it was about 11:23p.m we started to head home... Sent Rose home first then followed by kerry with hui pin and auntie serene... Haha... Hui pin needed auntie serene to send him home.. But I go off first as I didn't need anyone one to cradle me all the way home... So tired liao... Must sleep soon... Good nitez everbody... Sweet dreams...

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I'd give anything to see the sun set on the horizon,
I'd do anything to gaze at a full moon in the night sky;
Even a rainbow would make me smile,
And I'd love to swim in crystal clear waters
Of an untouched sea;
Sometimes I'll see a shooting star,
And try to gaze from afar,
All the diamonds in the night sky;
The mist on the mountains is breathtaking,
As is walking in rainforest;
To see cascading waterfalls I'd do anything for,
As to stand on the highest peak in the world,
And look at the sights below;
I'd love to soar on wings above the clouds,
Across the bluest skies;
I'd do anything to see
All the beautiful things in the world,
Like a red rose blooming in the Sahara,
Like a river twisting through a dusty land,
All the beautiful things in the world;

But I also know I am looking at
The world's most beautiful creation,
Every time you smile,
And every time I look into your eyes.

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Honey
Dip your finger in honey
one by one
glistening buttons
slip apart
at lip's touch
tread the tender mountain path
at slope of dewfall

Your thumb will trace out
the shell curve of my ear
I turn my face to your
sweet-scented palm
press it to my mouth

Sorrow melts away
like the ink of the squid in clear water
your sweat forms a pool in my navel,
or my tear falls, turning through space
to splash
like a sigh on your skin

There is no tomorrow
though dawn glows pink
there is only
flooded heartbeat confluence --

and fusion


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Today, a lot of miracles happened to me and it's karnan's bday today...HAPPY BDAY KARNAN!!!...Was so excited but at the same time things are still troubling me... Today got top for history,passed my Chinese for the first time in the entire 6 years & being removed from counseling... Miss Eng gave me a pack of M&M and a Lil card that congratulates me for improving so much in everything...Hehe... I accompanied les & owen to wait for everybody included in the recordings,greg went home first to change his attire... went into Jeremy's car and then talk cock for awhile... Owen went to look for the missing people included in the recordings but all weren't in school... But we found out that everyone went back home already... Dissapointed in wasting my precious time in school waiting for nothing... Decided to go home already and when suddenly greg just got down the bus and wanted to head for school but was stopped by us... We planned to study together but owen had to go do his things and I was late to meet the both of them... So I went to greg's house alone and then jia gui came soon after... Then rose came later... but she was the one who went off the earlist too... Was sort of blasting songs at greg's standard but not at mine... time flys in greg's house... left his house at 9:45p.m. and reached home at around 10:30 cause brought jia gui from greg's house to the 804 bus stop near my house... My mind is still loafting around in the currents of my brainwaves... But I hope i'll be ok cause i've not been feeling very right about my feelings..i have a feeling that i'm missing something in me but still unknown... Quite confused... So tired now... gotta tuck in liao.. Nite nitez...

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Today had our CME test and I felt that this test is meaningless and boring... Didn't wanted to finish it but still tried my best to put in some meaningful answers into the answer script.Wanna try passing it for once... Jaz's sistas' com had problem and requested for les & I to go fix it... But jaz asked alota dB members on whether they wanna go to her hse to study... In the end, those who went to her house didn't really finish a lot of job... Mission from jaz to les & me was to go fix the coms but we were rejected by both of the coms to repair it... Dammit... Many people left early and they left couple by couples... Hehe... We discussed about the holiday chalet but we were very stressed by planning... Everything was quite confidential till now it's still confidential but we haven't really decided on it but we are gonna take down votes from our class about or chalet... Didn't really do anything much today... It was narrowed down to 3 people jaz, owen & me. We three continued on chatting and discussing about the chalet blablabla... Until 9+ then we went home... Sent owen till the bus stop at ESSO... Reached home at 10p.m. sharp. Found out that my *ahem ahem* had marks of being pinched >.< I was at the same time being stuffed with KFC... Muahahaha... I actually didn't mention a lot of things in here as I feel that it might hurt someone or wadeva... So don't really wish to mention it here la... ;)... *yawnz*

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Woke up quite early today compare to the usual days... Updated my blog a lil and found out that "someone" has been not happy with my blog,Hehe... Dude(s)/Dudette(s)you insult don't really affect me as I don't know you. Even if I really know that it's you, do you think that I would really FREAKIN bash you up...? Nono, I'm gonna have a BF(Those who watched white chicks should know)...Haha... Today at school joker purposely jerked the flag downwards... That's something you should do dude,respect the flag.Today was the first test of the term,English language. Paper wasn't too difficult but wasn't too easy too...Hehe... Owen,les & I decided to skip our reccess and take our "breakfast" at LJS gui followed too. But jaz & rose thought we were going to LJS to study,Haha. Blur sia the both of you... Nvm... Les decided to change the destination to BK... Halfway will eating, jaz & rose came and at that point of time I felt that I was being watched at my 8:35 direction...Haha, A bunch of gals from Naval Base Sec.Finished our food and gui started to shoot crushed ice at us so we started to shoot each other. We headed straight to Starbucks and tried to study... But, nothing much was really really done... But as for owen he did most... He was sitting down quietly not like us just thinking about fun... There were a few Beyonce wanna-bes at a table of 6:35's angle of direction that were starers... We was really quite fed up with the heat there and we decided to go catch a movie... Went to GV to check the listings of the movies... Actually wanted to watch horror movies but our final decision was white chicks... The show started at 4p.m. the movie was so comedial that I was tearing when I laughed... I really needed an ambulance when I laughed... Anyone who reads this message I really recommend you guys to go watch this movie... You'll really burst into laughther when watching this movie... Came back home after the movie took 804 but owen was left out to take 800... I could see that he was already feeling unhappy since we tried to study in starbucks... Cheer up dude... Today was online for very long time again. I really wanna know what the hell is going on these few days... People seems unhappy, like karnan,so ke lian. Cheer up too dude. Today, she came online and we talked about it again... But the more she tells me about how she feels the more pressurised and guilty I get... I told her everything I could to make her understand but she wanted it her way, so I gave in and respected her decision... She gave me a plan and I think I would try to follow it... But don't regret if this doesn't work out the way you want it to happen... As what I told you was that you were being stubborn... Please try to understand the situation... I hope that you remembered my advice and heed my advice not just treat it as a compliment... Ending off here as it's already quite late and peace outz... Just love everyone ard me... Hugs & Kisses... Nitez nitez...

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Finally today I woke up early, took a sumptuous breakfast that made my stomach bloated like hell... You should see what I consumed and you'll feel that it's scary...Played GB with Rock3tboi like siao while I was eating today, he got thrashed. Didn't meant to do it... Planned to watch movie today at 1:15 with Rose, Kim & Kim's guy-to-be in causeway point...Haha... Feel that today izzit a very lucky day for me... Everything that happened didn't actually went through with what I expected:(,Nvm. Actually planned to watch white chicks but was late for the movie because of some people that are not punctual... Kim suggested that we watch Terminal, thought of watching it with DB so missed it and watch terminal instead... Movie was funny and touching at the same time...Finished watching the movie wasn't in the best of moods actually then they actually wanted to take neoprints but I forgot why they didn't want to take it... Then we went home soon after leaving the building... On the deck of the MRT station rose keeps complaining that I'm frowning(But I didn't)... Reached home and tortured me by enclosing myself in my room...Used the computer for already 5hours since I reached home... During this five hours wasn't in a very good mood too, was slacking all around in my room chatting on the com but played GB with les for awhile... Was accused of adding Veron into the conversation for not really doing it and this made me more unhappy... Quarrel with Lixin, Rock3boi & Mechwarrior...Tomorrow is test already,think I shouldn't get involved in any nonsense anymore and rock on with the way of life I should life with...I'm officially apologizing to those who I offended today,So sorry.Tried to resolve the conflict between Mechwarrior and Lixin...But but but...

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Actually wanted to start this day on an early morning, but overslept. Oversleeping one of my bad habits... Think I must start to change, Hehe. Woke up at 12+ because of gui's call on cancelling the trip to CHC(City Harvest Church)after that owen call on asking whether wanna study anot...Had tution at 2p.m but it was rather a fast one compare to others. A blink of an eye and it was 3:23p.m called owen but called the wrong person... was trying to contact ~EiLsEl~ for meeting each other to going Jaz's house.. Meet kina's family on the bus(So harmonised)...Cool... Reached 7-11 and bought swts for myself was like goign for picnic... Les was ordered by Jaz to buy her maltase choco but out of stock, so buy kinda bueno lorz... All the way to jaz's house. Les was violated once he reached jaz's hse *meow meow*... les helped out on constructing jaz's blog straight away after that and the sun entering jaz's room was super intense that the choco melted straight away it was on the table... That's what I call super natural heat... Played with norlyn's(jaz's younger sista)cat after les was done with her blog it was time that she cleaned up some corrupted files from her computer *Ahem Ahem*...Haha... Played Gb for her few rounds. Reconstructed my blog and it was so painful to my head reconstructing it at her house... Jaz and Nor can quarrel over cooking meals for each other(So childish)... I apologise... Disturbed alot of people at Jaz's MSN...Haha, everything was so lovely. But les, wa lau!!! Why you make me backfire myself? Soon, it was time for the both of us to head towards home... I felt hungry so went to buy chicken cutlet(les's intro). Don't really know why but auntie of the stall seems to be so seduced by me, gave me extra food that makes les so jealous...Saw Huda(ex-classmate) at the bus-stop. Reached home and still very troubled by someone...She is showing so much affection in me but I'm troubled by her affection...I really don't what to say to her but I really need some answers on when this will stop... I don't wanna hurt you but what can I do to make you understand without any bonds between us breaking up... So sorry....

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